A day of emptiness…

There is this one that comes every month, wherein I don’t know what happens to me. I feel like disconnecting myself from the world and being in my own world of loneliness. Though, this does not happens every time, but when it does, I feel a bit cynical about whatever I think and whatever I do. These are the times when my hands are typing, but my mind’s drifting somewhere else.

This is the time when I listen to more of metal or you can say heavy metal (I’m talking about music, not about iron, but yes about Iron Maiden).

This is the time when I don’t feel like talking to anyone on this planet. Just some “Alone Time” to get me back to my normal life from the darkness of that lonesomeness.

This is the time when I refuse to answer any calls or revert back to the messages.

This is the time when I ’m high on adrenaline. Even a question sounds like a blow to me.

This is the time when I wrap my feelings in a thick fur of anger and let it out through some mind-blasting hard rock, punk rock, progressive metal, heavy metal, nu-metal and every possible music genre which sounds heavy.

This is the time, while writing this post, I’m listening to Noiseware. It’s a heavy metal band from Pune for those who are not aware of them.

This is the time I don’t want any damn thing to takeover my psyche. I just want to be the way I’m for a few minutes or hours.

This is the time when my body temperature starts boiling.

This is the time when no one can calm me down, no matter what.

Though, previously I used to listen to anything (bollywood) that’s melancholy and makes me sadder to the deep of my heart. But that’s not the scenario now. Now, I say: come and crash me so hard that it rips me apart and take all my loneliness.

Do you have a day like this???